when the universe is complicating matters in a thousand-fold, you wonder whether it is the way of the universe to validate your actions (test the purity of your will) or to disagree with your actions (prohibiting you from getting to your goals/destination).

sometimes all you have to do is conquer the universe as your bitch.

yeah suck it bitch

if i can’t be my own, i feel better dead

those people just want you for themselves, not for the way you really are

i am being kind not because i have to, but because everybody deserves kindness, not for their merit or their character, just for the sake of their existence. i want them to feel like they are entitled to kindness, not for their attribute, but for their own being, thus they’ll feel good about themselves.

some say that you manifest your own destiny

some say that you dont have to struggle if it’s meant to be yours

hey, i struggle with everything, so that probably mean nothing will ever be mine.

fuck you universe

all you’re capable of doing is sabotaging my endeavors 

one day i’ll annihilate everything

it’s your turn to be nothing, to have nothing

those proverbs who say that you should not let life hardens you is full of shit, it’s against the principle of cause and effect, let alone the law of attraction. don’t parade those gimmicky stance to my face. misery needs company and it certainly is always beside me.

nobody will ever sympathize when you’re this adept creature, they expect you to never crack. when others get consolations, all you get is a taunt.

dist[URBAN]ce

every time i set foot on the ground, all i feel is chaos and confusion, mothernature is too disturbed, and she’s not shy about it, her moodswings and radical changes affect us, you can feel it every time you touch the ground, so many undirected energy that is lost untranslated.

too bad, i can’t float or fly, i need to be on a different plane.

THE VENTURI EFFECT

all those pressure eventually builds up to a threshold, ready to be channeled to a gauge in a faster rate. yeah, sometimes we need the push.

the (bullet in )butterfly(wings) effect

i believe that we’re like atomic particles in a magnetic field, susceptible to a dynamic flux, reactive to every planetary conjunction, every retrograde, every shift has its effect on the particles’coordinate. 

infantile romance

A : i just dont get it, my exes are fine having a cordial romance with their new partners, while they demanded a rollercoaster romance with me
A: they dont even touch their current partner
M: honey, you're the hottest ass they ever scored, they dont touch anyone else after you because there is a difference between respect and disgust, their new partner simply disgust them
A: then why do they seem happier with their new partner, it's just so casual blah blah blah
M: let's put it this way, would you do your mom, i dont think so
M: that's what they have with their new partner, an infantile romance, it's comfortable but it's on an infantile level, they just seek that matronizing figure, that's all, and there's no possible sex appeal in an infantile romance
A: yeah figured...
In contemporary usage… the words ‘crone,’ ‘witch,’ ‘bitch,’ and ‘virgin’ describe women as threatening, evil, or heterosexually inexperienced and thus incomplete. In prepatriarchal times, however, these words evoked far different images. The crone was the old woman whose life experience gave her insight, wisdom, respect, and the power to enrich people’s lives. The witch was the wise-woman healer, the knower of herbs, the midwife, the link joining body, spirit, and Earth. The bitch was Artemis-Diana, goddess of the hunt, most often associated with the dogs who accompanied her. And the virgin was merely a woman who was unattached, unclaimed, and unowned by any man and therefore independent and autonomous. Notice how each word has been transformed from a positive cultural image of female power, independence, and dignity to an insult or a shadow of its former self so that few words remain to identify women in ways both positive and powerful.
— Allan G. Johnson, “Patriarchy, the System: An It, Not a He, a Them or an Us” (1997)

(Source: aloofshahbanou)

vaginal blues

A: i'm not an over-achiever, but lately i've been so insecure with my work, i feel like it's lacking everything, eventhough my instructor told me that i'm being redundant
M: chill man, you've given everything, it's done, there is nothing left to worry about
A: i know, i just feel like maybe there's still a room for improvement
M: nah, it's just the blues talking
M: that's cause you've been on a dry spell
A: ......is that even possible
A: then why virgins seem fine with their work
M: they're actually sad inside, their vagina keeps playing coldplay songs you know
A: .....
M: be independent, please yourself, so much for a vaginal sanctity
A: ....

the thrill is gone

other disciples find it challenging and interesting since they’re trying to figure out the whole, they still have some figuring out to do, whereas i’m stoically stoned, i’ve figured out everything, nothing amuses me, i’m the whole, a living and breathing testament of everything possibly known.

the whole is nothing but a hole

aurelia in chains (…..)

not another instagram

www.instagram.com/aurelizard

i’m posting dark, raw images, hopefully something not so mainstream

the girlfriend experience movie-starring sasha grey<3

so this was the scene where chelsea(sasha), an upscale escort, was having an interview with some guy.(NOT THE EXACT WORDS)

guy: do you have to be what the client want you to be

chelsea: yeah, they want me to be what they’ve envisioned for me

guy: why would they pay for a fake diamond, shouldn’t they get the real diamond?the real you?

7th-chakra:

“Satan means Saturn. Lucifer means Light. Devil means double. Free yourself from religion and think.”